Here's the deal: from now on, I'm going to try to be honest. That is, no more crap, no more dry attempts at humor. I think that I've been looking at this whole blog thing wrong. Maybe it's not about getting people to come to your site, maybe it should just be about what you think or what you feel. I guess what I'm saying is that, to make a long story short, I think I need to vent. Hopefully, this can be somehow therapeutic.

I've accomplished a lot. I mean, in my (relatively short) life, I have done tons of stuff, won tons of things. I have a whole stack of certificates and literally shelves of trophies and plaques. Most of them have been for intellectual things. I have lots of debate awards, a few science fair awards, and some awards for doing great on the SAT in 7th grade. I should feel happy about all of this, and I guess I am, but somehow it all feels empty.

People at school are always telling me that I'm smart or that I'm a genius. They tell me that they wish that they were as smart as me. I don't think that it's so great, though. Being smart can be good, at times, but it can also be desperately lonely. Sometimes I feel like an outsider--like there's no one to talk to, and no one who can understand me. I'm not unpopular or picked-on or anything like that, it's just, I'm different.